This year marks the halfway point between living without Christ and living with Him!  It was when I was 21years old, a senior in college that I was exposed to this living Christ.  My roommate would get up at 5am to read the Bible and I used to think “why would she waste good sleep and do that?” She lived the life of grace in front of me and I realized it was much different from the life of man-made rules and religious code that I was raised on. 

I attended many Campus Crusade meetings and heard things that, if they were really true, would change my life.  Those truths did completely change my life.  Things that I thought were important for success, mostly material possessions and personal recognition, now looked like hindrances to my freshly renewed soul.  They would only keep me from the real prize which had become knowing God and His plan for me.  The Holy Spirit was the new guide on my life’s journey and I was freed from the pressures of living up to who and what I thought I needed to be.

Life hasn’t always been easy but I have found God to be faithful in all circumstances.  When we struggled with the trial of infertility, I found Him to be who He said He is, providing daily strength and hope in a very hopeless time.  I asked God questions as “can I really trust you with my dreams?”, “would I be OK if they were left unfulfilled?” And, “why did this happen to me and not to anyone else I know?” It caused me to search for hope in the only place I knew contained hope - His word.  I went through the whole book writing down verses of hardship and hope and remembered Job 2:10 “shall we accept good from God and not accept adversity?” That is true….why NOT me?

I learned that this pain was a growing tool, the common devise used to get some of his more stubborn kids (i.e. ME) to a place of brokenness and need.  It lead me to have some extreme fellowship with my Father, and I learned that His heart is good and I could trust Him even though I might not ever get a child.  My broken heart started to heal when I realized that He alone would be enough.  Even so, he later saw it good to bless us with a son and then a daughter! 

So in just 20 years time I’ve learned that he satisfies my every hunger, meets my every need, anticipates all my fears, compensates for all my weaknesses, gives loving grace, is completely sufficient in trials, sustains me with His presence, and infuses me with hope.